Well, tomorrow is my first day back at work. It was originally going to be May 1, but the company I'm working for now has asked me to come in sooner to help with assembling the tax returns that need to be couriered to their clients. Since I've done that before, they thought it would be a good idea to bring me in on the action.
I am pretty excited because I remember how accomplished I felt, knowing I was able to assist the company I was working for in the day-to-day administrative duties, which I LOVE doing!
But I am leaving my children to go to work. I feel a little ashamed about it because all my life I've had the mentality that a successful family will allow the mother to stay at home with her children while the father works. I know our situation is a little different, since Jeff wants to go back to school to pursue a different career, but I can't take away these deep-rooted assumptions about family life.
I know that it will take time to not want to cry every time I think about it, and this is for the future of my family. I am willing to take some loss now to have gain in the future. And these are the choices that Jeff and I have thought and prayed about for a looong time now, so we know that this is God's path for our lives. I just wish there was a way for me to have both sides: staying at home with my kids AND working in my field.
Okay. I'm done my little pity party.